The casket is closed. It is always difficult to watch such an excruciating death. My knees weakened and tears seemed endless. So difficult to let go, no longer able to be called upon. I have mourned and grieved this death for a long time.
Now, I am convinced that it was for the best. It was my pride that had died that day.
It had been some time ago, I fell down on my luck. I had been filled with a sense of hopelessness which pained me to start each new day. A new day consumed with dread and despair, achieving nothing but to be reminded how my ridiculous goals were far from being realistically attained. My goals were sitting on the other side of the ocean and all life handed me was a paddle, which was broken. I have cried, screamed and complained, which only seemed to spread the gap wider between me and my happiness.
Gratitude showed its face to me out of fear. I was afraid things were going to get worse. I was afraid that terrible things would continue to happen in my life and I was fearful of what would become of my children. Gratitude would stop by here and there to console me. Gratitude made me feel fortunate for the little we did have and taught me the importance of the intangible things, which is too often overlooked. Gratitude eventually replaced the ugly pride that filled my soul, no longer able to consume my happiness.
I have lived in this quote everyday since the death of my pride.
The other day the sun rose in the sky. It was an ordinary day for most, getting the kids off to school, hauling to work. The flowers and trees are busy carrying out spring. The post had been delivered, filling our mailboxes with empty hands waiting for their share of your hard earned money. Some people probably ran a red light and others needed to pick up a few things at the store. All were completely unaware of the wind’s from the east blowing in . . .
As many of you were going about your day, my makeshift boat scraped on the shallow bottom of the beach, as my calloused hands pulled it ashore.
I have arrived on the other side of that ocean.
I used duct tape on the paddle. It turns out, it worked just fine.
Yay Lisa! You made it across, my friend! You deserve every happiness. I knew you were crafty. Nice work on the paddle! š
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I owe you so much for your continuous support and friendship. Thanks for lending me some tape š
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And I have endless gratitude for your friendship and support. Thank God, we are able to keep passing the duct tape back and forth. It really does make the journey better. š
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It was a rough journey, but you made it. Congrats. š
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Indeed it was a struggle but what a feeling overcoming obstacles to reach your goals. Thank you š
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You are welcome, Lisa. š
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The death of pride giving birth to gratitude. I really like this.
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Thank you š
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Very nicely done. Great images.
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Thank you so much š
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I really have enjoyed your blog and find it to be very inspirational. I know you have more followers/subscribers than 1,000, but I couldn’t pass up an opportunity to nominate you for the Liebster award.
Check out your nomination: https://theameribritmom.wordpress.com/2015/04/16/liebster-award/
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Wow! Thank you so much I only have a bit over 350 followers -which I cannot honestly believe! Thank you so much for thinking of me! You have made my day!!! š
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This is BEAUTIFUL. Love this. Seriously. So well done.
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Thank you so very much!! It really means a lot š
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Love! This is beautiful.
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Thank you! š I really appreciate it! š
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LOVE the line about the paddle. (Duct tape will fix anything, no?) š
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Thank you so much!! yes, duct tape – who knew? š
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I love it!!! This is my whole life, maybe. Always putting duct tape on the paddle. lol Great post!
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Thank you so much! I am so glad you can relate! š As long at we get there and reach our goals it really doesn’t matter š š
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I nominated you for an award today š
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Hi! I am back! Wow! Thank you so very much! Going to check it out now š
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Well done! I love this Einstein quote “everything is energy and that’s all there is to it”.
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those are words to live by!! Thank you so much for taking the time to read!! š
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